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I walked out of my house after I had my baby

// This guest post has been submitted by the popular parenting website ZenParent and is earlier published at the below link:

http://zenparent.in/parenting/i-walked-out-of-my-house-after-i-had-my-baby

The author of the post, Sharanya Karnad, is a full-time mum and a hobby baker. She regularly counsels women, informally, for postpartum depression. //

For the better part of 2015, my only dream was to hold my newborn, when she would come in October, and cherish every single minute that I had with her. Most of my family lives close to where I live, so I had cousins and other relatives who had had babies, and, being a close-knit family, I had spent a lot time around babies. I had seen how they could change the lives of their parents, and how all the mothers just somehow…managed…to be dressed up for weddings, cheerful at family gatherings and never really complaining ever. It was hard for me to imagine that having a baby was anything but natural at worst, and pleasant and manageable at best.

Then, on October 19, Shikha came along. Eight and half pounds, head full of hair and a wail so loud that even the doctors in the operation theater laughed. After 31 hours of labor, I finally had a C-section. I was disappointed, but it had to be done, and by the time I recovered after the operation, I had reconciled myself to the fact that all the planning I had done for a natural birth was futile. This is how it was meant to be.